A Dark Love Letter
The doubt in your mind feels like a noose placed tight around my neck.
Ready to snap and end an already lifeless existence.
Ready to send me to the edge of my fragile belief of ever finding lasting love,
and is only like a band-aid to slow the uncomfort of a dying heart.
The pressure is unstable . My heart has suffered .
The only remedy is to have you.
The creator on my tranquil world.
The keeper of my thoughts , and the administrator of my pain.
Keeping me submerged in my own self guilt and self doubt.
Apologizing for a crime that I haven’t even committed.
Yet you are my executioner.
I’d rather burn than have you doubt me.
The thought of ever hurting you impels me like razor sharp knives,
disecting the layers of my already severed heart.
Like the blade in my hand you protect me from my suffering.
The antidote to my poisoned reality and my crippled existence.
The star that brightened up my world and my future.
You are the beautiful music that I hear in complete silence.
~ You are the Queen and I am your slave ~
Your doubt of my love feels to me like an injury.
Deny me of the face I never want to see.
Grant me escape from my personal torment.
Re-breathe life in my soiled lungs.
Everything that I’ve ever loved is robbed and taken away.
Submitting to you will be my only mistake.
But you are almighty.
I ingest you like a succulent treat.
The inner demon to create my tears , and the inner child
to take them away.
Still I’m molested and lost,
bitter and empty.
Maybe you deserve someone sweet , not bitter . . . someone like yourself ?
Like a fool I thought that black could turn to white,
and that evil could mutate to good.
The truth is that you’re my only Heaven.
So let’s melt into each others souls.
My love,
I will never be untrue.
I just want to live to love you.
Chase away my pain with your healing hands.
Drain the venom from my veins.
You amaze me in every way.
Your loss of love will send violence in my mind.
This is my fear,
Losing you has become my only fear.
~ I sold my soul to you ~
“4 angela”
